Tuesday, September 8, 2009

hate

I hate languages.

I took two years of Spanish in high school, and semester another at college and I honestly cannot say anything besides: hola, puedo ir la baño? and como estas?
and are those even correct?

I am in my second semester of college french, and I still cannot understand a single word that my professor says.
I cannot even properly introduce myself.
At all.
Every day I sit through an hour of French and wonder what everyone is talking about.

I am honestly considering changing my major.
I love English. The idea literally makes me cry. I want nothing more than to study the beautiful English language, its literature, its poetry, its grammar.
and yet, I have to take and no doubt pass, three more semesters of a language besides English.
Spanish wasn't easier. Please don't tell me to choose an easier language than French.
If I have to learn a language, French is the one for me.
I love French poets, French film, French culture.
I hate French.

I'm going to try to not cry through today's French class. But every time the professor looks at me, all I can say is je ne sais pas.
and I know that I'm pronouncing it wrong.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Here's the thing: learning languages sucks. It's crappy. And I want to cry every day too, so I know where you're coming from my dear. Come over and cry with me tonight, deal?
It'll click one day. And then you'll still have a love/hate relationship, but at least you'll half understand, n'est-ce pas?

Mary said...

I hate hate languages..

P.S. I'm downstairs and so is Jack he is playing a weird game with himself he is making himself cry by running as hard as he can at a car and then ramming it in to the wall right now this very second he is whimpering yet walking the car back to his starting point.....Boys are dumb

Polly said...

Speaking of Jack... yesterday in his drama class he had to stand in front of the class and speak with an accent. He got up and said something goofy like Coach Z would say "hey der howz it goin wit all of you don't cha no" etc, the teacher said "great Mn accent Jack" and Jack said "hey wait I'm from MN and I don't talk like that we don't have an accent." Maybe you already speak a foreign language!